Suzie

devilspider @ 2006-05-23T03:56:00

2006-05-23T11:13:37Z

I havnt spoke to most of you in a long while. I would have liked to but it seems that I have made a lot of bad decisions that have made a huge impact on not only mine but other peoples lifes. I dare not try and give my side of things, instead I will just deal with the regrets that I have created. I have thought about all of you a great deal. Though as much as ive missed spending time with all of you I dont know if I have it in me to try and reconcile. I fear rejection...ive dealt with it once and i'm not sure I can do it again. I have changed a lot since the last time I saw most of you. I feel much better about the direction my life is going in now, it's a much more positive and less self destructive than before. I guess what i'm trying to say by writing this is...I am sorry to all of the people I dragged down with me when I was going through a tough time in my life. I know it may not mean much, I do realize there is nothing I can do to change the things I have done, but I can at least admit my wrongs and say I am truly sorry. I am going to leave an invitation open to all of you to say whatever is on your mind, whether it be good or bad.

devilspider @ 2005-06-25T16:53:00

2005-06-25T23:57:11Z

where is everyone dang it, I got off work early and lily is at her grandmas for the night, bummer man, rushed home so I could sit here and wish someone was online. well I guess I will be going out to eat by myself then. I dont work till tomorrow afternoon and I want to do something fun tonight. oh well, I guess if I dont go out I can always watch OZ.

just rambling

2005-06-19T03:18:01Z

Well i'm defenatly feeling like i'm a little out of the loop lately. I have asked to get my days off switched because it just isnt working out. I have been working a lot lately and really been bustin my ass at this job. I guess it really payed off because my boss says everyone really likes me and he is giving me a 50 cent raise. It's really sweet because i've only been working there a month, hell not even a month yet. Moving on up in the world, hehe. I'm dreading getting my first bills for my place though. Not sure what my my electricity bill is going to be like. Cant wait till I get the computer at my place cause i'm having withdrawls from the online world. Cant call too many people from my phone cause everyone is long distance...kinda sucks actually. Thinking i'll have to get a cell phone when everything with moving smooths out. well, gotta get offline again, going home. Hope to see everyone soon, oh and my phone number is....
253-845-3149 I give permission to give my number out to whoever wants it and yall can all at any time because if me and lily are sleeping it wont wake us up. But there is always a chance i'll be awake still. anyways later all.

devilspider @ 2005-05-11T15:34:00

2005-05-11T22:34:39Z

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Mayfaire....Weeee!!

2005-05-02T01:45:53Z

Well, i'm home now and about to jump in the shower. This weekend was a blast. Little john (Acris) was a natural, hehe...the ladies better watch out for him. Got there pretty late on friday but still had some fun. Got pretty drunk on saturday and found a bed warmer who was actually a gentleman, always a plus. Dancing was fun although extremelly crouded...we will have to make up for it at june faire I suppose. Kim was looking exceptionally skilled dancing with the cloven fruit on her head. Little jon successfully got far enough out of the tent before puking, so good job on that one, hehe. It was a great weekend with the exception of my goody bag being full, but it's probably for the best. I also got turned down by a guy when offering him a fruit...but that's also for the best. Guess that's whatcha get when you tell a guy you dont want to be his bedwarmer, hehe...Hurts a guys ego I guess. the last fruit I got was almost the final straw for what's his name though, I can only handle so much before I get irritated. I spoke to squirrel at the event and it actually went quite well, although the alcohol helps with that i'm sure. I'm glad I didnt see donnie there though, that conversation wouldnt have gone over so well. Oh, and of course there was a no show by paul. Guess that leash is shorter than he says it is. I think I hear the sound of a whip cracking. Hehe...had to say it. Anyways, I have to jump in the shower...dont know what else i'm leaving out...oh wait yes I do, hehe...I left out the best parts.

Party or dancing?

2005-04-10T21:10:57Z

I really really really want to get drunk next weekend. I have no idea where this will take place but I havnt gotten drunk in a couple months. If anyone has plans to go out on friday or saturday please let me know so I can please come with. I need some dang fun, too much work and not enough play time. I'm finally getting over my second cold in two weeks and I deserve to party it up next weekend. Hell i'll even settle for waiting an extra week if next week isnt good for everyone. Me Need Fun!!!

devilspider @ 2005-04-03T16:04:00

2005-04-03T23:04:17Z

You Are 50% Redneck

You're just about as welcome up in town as a hair in a biscuit.

Ain't no hidin' your redneck roots!

How Redneck Are You?

devilspider @ 2005-03-19T16:10:00

2005-03-20T00:19:49Z

It's been a long time since I have had a crush on someone. I am really really into someone and I dont think they feel the same way about me. Seems like every time I have a crush that happens. Finally find a great guy who is also very attractive and it isnt going to go anywhere. Oh well, I have time to wait, hehe. I thinks it's probably better for me to focus on what's going on in my life right now rather than trying to get with some guy. Although it would be nice to snuggle with him on occasion, hehe. I'll let ya all know how it turns out, either way he is a good friend so it's a win win situation. Oh and I have to give a great big thanks to Mariah for making it possible for me to go dancing last night.

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Happy St. pattys day?

2005-03-18T07:47:02Z

Well today has been an extremely difficult day for me. I thought today would go by easier but it has been a lot worse than anticipated. One year of being single and it is not a happy day like I thought it would be. I was planning on celebrating today because I do actually like being single. But things keep going through my head that are not very pleasant. I'm just glad I didnt drink tonight because I think that would have turned out badly. All I want right now is someone to hold me and comfort me. I could settle for just not being alone right now. oh well, tomorrow will be a better day that's for sure.

devilspider @ 2005-02-15T02:11:00

2005-02-15T10:11:57Z

If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often, you must post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened.

Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you.

devilspider @ 2005-01-28T20:15:00

2005-01-29T04:15:14Z

Pick ONE from each pair that you think best describes me. Put your answers in your comment on this post. Then post it to your Journal and see what yer friends think of yous.

dominant or submissive
logical or intuitive
social or loner
kinky or vanilla
cute or sophisticated
kitten or puppy
warm flannel sheets or sleek satin
leader or follower
quiet or talkative
spontaneous or planned

devilspider @ 2004-12-29T17:48:00

2004-12-30T01:47:56Z

take the nerd test.

and go to mewing.net. a nerd utopia.

Fave song...

2004-12-28T07:18:27Z

Post the lyrics of your fave song, please...

Artist: Soul Asylum
Album: Grave Dancer's Union
Title: Runaway Train

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a blowtorch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
I promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep; there's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded?
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just a-drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

And everything seems cut and dried,
Day and night, earth and sky,
Somehow I just don't believe it

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughing at the rain
A little out of touch, a little insane
It's just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Runaway train, never coming back
Runaway train, tearing up the track
Runaway train, burning in my veins
I run away but it always seems the same

New Years Party

2004-12-28T03:02:37Z

I need a head count for the new years party...let me know if you are or are not coming please. There were rumors that there was not going to be a party but the party is still on...

devilspider @ 2004-12-21T23:38:00

2004-12-22T07:51:39Z

well, I dont really know what to say, I have a lot on my mind. I am stuck here because someone slashed both of my front tires last weekend. I left my car at jeffs for a couple of days and I guess someone either doesnt like me very much or just some punk kids. I ended up having to stay over at jeffs on sunday because of it. I am not able to work this week because I have no way of getting there. Basically I have no car and no money for christmas. I am completely stressed out and I have no solution. I dont want to go on for another hour bitching so I will leave it at that.

devilspider @ 2004-12-09T19:09:00

2004-12-10T03:09:26Z

You have the Rossetti girl look. You are the kind
of girl pre-Raphaelite painters admired; tall,
slender, and fair as a lily flower. The
pre-Raphaelite girl had dramatic beauty; long
neck, large soulful eyes, full shapely mouth
and masses of wavy hair. The pre-Raphaelites
painted girls like this, they showed them in
dramatic situations dressed as famous
characters in legends, plays and poetry. The
favourite colours of the artists were russet,
green and gold. The following artists would
have loved to paint you; Holman Hunt, John
Everett Millais, Edward Burne-Jones, William
Morris and Dante Gabriel Rossetti.

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devilspider @ 2004-12-09T18:54:00

2004-12-10T02:54:33Z

You scored as Lawful Good. A lawful good person acts as a good person is expected or required to act. They are dedicated to upholding both what is right and what is set down in law.

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Lawful Good

75%

Lawful Neutral

55%

Chaotic Good

55%

Neutral Good

50%

Neutral Evil

50%

Chaotic Neutral

45%

Lawful Evil

45%

True Neutral

45%

Chaotic Evil

35%

What is your Alignment?
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devilspider @ 2004-12-09T14:50:00

2004-12-09T22:50:31Z

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first name
age
Stripper Name:	Zelda
Specialty:	u get the most $ in yer thong
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Need SCA name Help!

2004-12-09T10:41:46Z

these are my options so far...
NAME.............ORIGIN............MEANING...........
Suravinda........hindu.............beautiful yaksa
Sakari........native american......sweet
Keelin...........Celtic............fair, slender
Simran...........hindu.............gods gift
Fionn............Celtic............white, fair
Suchitra.........Hindu.............none listed

I just liked the way these names sounded...give input please...
which do you like best, if any...

I only have one word to say...

2004-12-01T09:54:01Z

Sorry...

devilspider @ 2004-11-28T17:00:00

2004-11-29T01:00:33Z

Does anybody want to go play pool tonight?

devilspider @ 2004-11-23T13:52:00

2004-11-23T22:44:09Z

I have so much to say but I cant say most of it because I dont want to name names. I will say that there seems to be an enormous amount of drama building up. It is strange how none of it involves me yet I feel like I am right in the middle of all of it. I think I will just start rambling and hope I cover all the bases without getting too detailed. To my closest friends who somehow got wrapped up in something that was nothing, I have not taken sides, and will not. I love all of you and I feel as though I know the truth even if it hasnt been told to me by everyone involved. I know that no one was out to hurt anyone else. I know that everything will be fine when this boiling point returns to a slow simmer. I will have to apologize to the person I have not talked to yet, it was not you I was angry with, it was the situation I was put it. I fealt like I was being tossed around emotionally and I didnt know which end was up or down. I know that feelings have been hurt and words were probably thrown your way which were not deserved, though i'm not exactly sure who has said these things. I dont know what part I play in all of this except that I am a close friend to all of you. I have done my best to keep things together with all of you and make sure that everyone was defended equaly, other than that I dont want to be in the middle of it. Frankly I dont think there is any problem any more, besides the comfort level being deminished a bit.

I will change my topic now to another person. I would like a certain someone to know that if someone has an opinion about them it has nothing to do with me. I am thinking that "the other parties involved" was talking about me and I have done nothing to alter anyones opinion of you. When things were said between the two of you it was just that, between the two of you. I am irritated to think that I may have also been dragged into that whole thing as well. I have to say one last thing, I thought it was absurd when you said this person had told you that you should be with a certain person. The reason I say that is because she has told me numerous times that that is the last thing she wants.
I will say to the other person involved in this bit of drama that I am sorry that the friendship between the two of you went the way it did. I had never expected things to go this way and I wish that things could have been different. I have a great deal of respect for you and I want you to know that I think she was wrong in some of the things she had said. People change and sometimes change can slowly dwindle a friendship, I wish the best for you.

Onto another topic...I'm sorry if this seems harsh I just fealt that the one way or the other thing seemed a little overboard.
I just have to say that when someone is passed out in a sleeping bag and I decide to take the little bit of space left on the bed to sleep, using a seperate blanket, that doesnt mean anything except that I didnt want to sleep on the floor. I just didnt want you to think that I had anything to do with you crawling out of your sleeping bag and under my covers and snuggling me while I was passed out. I tried to act like it didnt bother me because I had to get a ride back to my car. It did bother me though, I thought I was just sharing the bed with a friend but now I see that you didnt think the same way. I would really like to continue being friends, I enjoy hanging out with you, and talking with you but that's as far as it goes. If you dont think we can hang out any more then I will deal with that but I would still enjoy your company if it is possible for us to hang out.

I hope that with all this said I didnt piss anybody off or hurt anyones feelings but I have been stressed and dealing with everyone elses shit. I had to get it all out and be done with it. If I was wrong in anything that I said I apologize and dont mind being called out on it. I want you all to know that I dont feel any different about any of you and still hope to hang out with all of you in the future. If anyone needs or wants to talk or just hang out, I am still free on friday, let me know.

Directions to Paul and Keri's new years bash!

2004-11-21T04:57:33Z

The address is 26719 346th ave SE, mapquest it. If in doubt, call 360-886-2590 or 253-261-7155.

From Federal way Take 18 east to covington (272nd st SE) exit. Take a right off the exit and you will be on kent Kangley road. stay on kent kangley (roughly 12 miles to house) when the road splits off stay to the left (Selleck). keep going down a long ways and you will come to a sharp left turn (25 mph),then you will come to a sharp right turn,(you will see a dead end sign) dont turn right go strait on the gravel road. They are the last house on the left (green house). good luck everyone, heh. It is easy to get here so if my directions were confusing just call paul.

devilspider @ 2004-11-16T23:56:00

2004-11-17T08:11:45Z

Well, tomorrow my dad is going to help me move the rest of my stuff. I guess that means I will be officially living at Paul and Keri's. So far i'm not liking the situation but I think it will get better. There are 7 people living here and it's been a long time since I have had to deal with this kind of roomate situation. Although I think it would be a hell of a lot better if Marcus was not living here. He is getting on my last nerve and i'm having a hard time not going off on him. I could go on for hours about all the things that piss me off about him but I wont, atleast not right now, heh. tomorrow when I get the rest of my stuff I will be sharing the downstairs with him. Not really liking that idea too much. It's just a big open space so I went out and bought some awesome curtains to put up. I'll show all of you at the new years bash, it's going to look great when i'm done. I cant wait till it's done but it would be a lot nicer if I had the downstairs to myself, heh. I'm going a little stir crazy here since I have been out of work for about 5 days. I cant just drive over to someones house or anything so I am stuck here most of the time. I might be able to go back to work at the end of the week if i'm lucky. I'm thinking about getting a job out here somewhere but there arent a whole lot of options. Lily likes it here so that's good, she likes Emyli and scout a lot. She is starting to get along better with Marcus's daughter, not sure how to spell her name...Makenzie?. She is almost 2 and her and Lily hated eachother at first. I had never seen Lily give anyone a mean look until I saw her glaring at makenzie for holding her pink blanket. All hell broke loose when that happened, it was like baby wrestling and I was the only ref, lol. Well, I gotta get to bed, gunna try and get a little sleep before the kids wake up. Talk to ya all later, hope to see you guys before the party. Oh, what is everyone doing for thanksgiving? just out of curiousity.

devilspider @ 2004-11-15T02:57:00

2004-11-15T10:57:27Z

Your Beauty lies
in Innocence. Pure, sweet and child-like. You most
likely look far younger than
you are and your smile would brighten up anyone's
day. Seen as naive and
sheltered, you can be ignorant at times, but for
the most part, it's simply your
reputation preceding you. You are most likely
rather aware of the realities of
life. You are extremely good natured and
trustworthy. By the same token, you are
a bit too trusting. Be careful, few are as honest
and open as you. You might
seem girlish still with a love of dresses, ponies,
and things most might deem
you "too old for". But this doesn't
bother you. You enjoy your youth and are
going to make it last. After all you are only as
old as you feel.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Light, Wind Animal: Kitten Color:
White, Pink, Pastels Song:
Beautiful Soul by Jesse McCartney
Expression: Innocent Smile

Gemstone:
Diamond Mythological Creature: Unicorn
Sign: Virgo Planet:
Moon Hair Color: White Eye Color:
Silver

Quote: "A
stranger is just a friend you haven't met
yet."

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