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[May. 23rd, 2006|03:56 am] |
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I havnt spoke to most of you in a long while. I would have liked to but it seems that I have made a lot of bad decisions that have made a huge impact on not only mine but other peoples lifes. I dare not try and give my side of things, instead I will just deal with the regrets that I have created. I have thought about all of you a great deal. Though as much as ive missed spending time with all of you I dont know if I have it in me to try and reconcile. I fear rejection...ive dealt with it once and i'm not sure I can do it again. I have changed a lot since the last time I saw most of you. I feel much better about the direction my life is going in now, it's a much more positive and less self destructive than before. I guess what i'm trying to say by writing this is...I am sorry to all of the people I dragged down with me when I was going through a tough time in my life. I know it may not mean much, I do realize there is nothing I can do to change the things I have done, but I can at least admit my wrongs and say I am truly sorry. I am going to leave an invitation open to all of you to say whatever is on your mind, whether it be good or bad. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 25th, 2005|04:53 pm] |
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where is everyone dang it, I got off work early and lily is at her grandmas for the night, bummer man, rushed home so I could sit here and wish someone was online. well I guess I will be going out to eat by myself then. I dont work till tomorrow afternoon and I want to do something fun tonight. oh well, I guess if I dont go out I can always watch OZ. |
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| just rambling |
[Jun. 18th, 2005|08:09 pm] |
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Well i'm defenatly feeling like i'm a little out of the loop lately. I have asked to get my days off switched because it just isnt working out. I have been working a lot lately and really been bustin my ass at this job. I guess it really payed off because my boss says everyone really likes me and he is giving me a 50 cent raise. It's really sweet because i've only been working there a month, hell not even a month yet. Moving on up in the world, hehe. I'm dreading getting my first bills for my place though. Not sure what my my electricity bill is going to be like. Cant wait till I get the computer at my place cause i'm having withdrawls from the online world. Cant call too many people from my phone cause everyone is long distance...kinda sucks actually. Thinking i'll have to get a cell phone when everything with moving smooths out. well, gotta get offline again, going home. Hope to see everyone soon, oh and my phone number is....
253-845-3149 I give permission to give my number out to whoever wants it and yall can all at any time because if me and lily are sleeping it wont wake us up. But there is always a chance i'll be awake still. anyways later all. |
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[May. 11th, 2005|03:34 pm] |
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The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. |
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
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| Mayfaire....Weeee!! |
[May. 1st, 2005|06:31 pm] |
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Well, i'm home now and about to jump in the shower. This weekend was a blast. Little john (Acris) was a natural, hehe...the ladies better watch out for him. Got there pretty late on friday but still had some fun. Got pretty drunk on saturday and found a bed warmer who was actually a gentleman, always a plus. Dancing was fun although extremelly crouded...we will have to make up for it at june faire I suppose. Kim was looking exceptionally skilled dancing with the cloven fruit on her head. Little jon successfully got far enough out of the tent before puking, so good job on that one, hehe. It was a great weekend with the exception of my goody bag being full, but it's probably for the best. I also got turned down by a guy when offering him a fruit...but that's also for the best. Guess that's whatcha get when you tell a guy you dont want to be his bedwarmer, hehe...Hurts a guys ego I guess. the last fruit I got was almost the final straw for what's his name though, I can only handle so much before I get irritated. I spoke to squirrel at the event and it actually went quite well, although the alcohol helps with that i'm sure. I'm glad I didnt see donnie there though, that conversation wouldnt have gone over so well. Oh, and of course there was a no show by paul. Guess that leash is shorter than he says it is. I think I hear the sound of a whip cracking. Hehe...had to say it. Anyways, I have to jump in the shower...dont know what else i'm leaving out...oh wait yes I do, hehe...I left out the best parts. |
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| Party or dancing? |
[Apr. 10th, 2005|02:05 pm] |
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I really really really want to get drunk next weekend. I have no idea where this will take place but I havnt gotten drunk in a couple months. If anyone has plans to go out on friday or saturday please let me know so I can please come with. I need some dang fun, too much work and not enough play time. I'm finally getting over my second cold in two weeks and I deserve to party it up next weekend. Hell i'll even settle for waiting an extra week if next week isnt good for everyone. Me Need Fun!!! |
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[Apr. 3rd, 2005|04:04 pm] |
You Are 50% Redneck
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You're just about as welcome up in town as a hair in a biscuit.
Ain't no hidin' your redneck roots! |
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[Mar. 19th, 2005|04:10 pm] |
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It's been a long time since I have had a crush on someone. I am really really into someone and I dont think they feel the same way about me. Seems like every time I have a crush that happens. Finally find a great guy who is also very attractive and it isnt going to go anywhere. Oh well, I have time to wait, hehe. I thinks it's probably better for me to focus on what's going on in my life right now rather than trying to get with some guy. Although it would be nice to snuggle with him on occasion, hehe. I'll let ya all know how it turns out, either way he is a good friend so it's a win win situation. Oh and I have to give a great big thanks to Mariah for making it possible for me to go dancing last night. [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<big hugs!>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] It's been a long time since I have had a crush on someone. I am really really into someone and I dont think they feel the same way about me. Seems like every time I have a crush that happens. Finally find a great guy who is also very attractive and it isnt going to go anywhere. Oh well, I have time to wait, hehe. I thinks it's probably better for me to focus on what's going on in my life right now rather than trying to get with some guy. Although it would be nice to snuggle with him on occasion, hehe. I'll let ya all know how it turns out, either way he is a good friend so it's a win win situation. Oh and I have to give a great big thanks to Mariah for making it possible for me to go dancing last night. <BIG HUGS!> I had a blast! |
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| Happy St. pattys day? |
[Mar. 17th, 2005|11:38 pm] |
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Well today has been an extremely difficult day for me. I thought today would go by easier but it has been a lot worse than anticipated. One year of being single and it is not a happy day like I thought it would be. I was planning on celebrating today because I do actually like being single. But things keep going through my head that are not very pleasant. I'm just glad I didnt drink tonight because I think that would have turned out badly. All I want right now is someone to hold me and comfort me. I could settle for just not being alone right now. oh well, tomorrow will be a better day that's for sure. |
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[Feb. 15th, 2005|02:11 am] |
If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often, you must post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened.
Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you. |
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[Jan. 28th, 2005|08:15 pm] |
Pick ONE from each pair that you think best describes me. Put your answers in your comment on this post. Then post it to your Journal and see what yer friends think of yous.
dominant or submissive
logical or intuitive
social or loner
kinky or vanilla
cute or sophisticated
kitten or puppy
warm flannel sheets or sleek satin
leader or follower
quiet or talkative
spontaneous or planned |
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| Fave song... |
[Dec. 27th, 2004|11:16 pm] |
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Post the lyrics of your fave song, please...
Artist: Soul Asylum
Album: Grave Dancer's Union
Title: Runaway Train
Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a blowtorch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning
So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
I promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep
It seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep; there's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray
Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there
Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded?
Life's mystery seems so faded
I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just a-drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train
And everything seems cut and dried,
Day and night, earth and sky,
Somehow I just don't believe it
Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there
Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughing at the rain
A little out of touch, a little insane
It's just easier than dealing with the pain
Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there
Runaway train, never coming back
Runaway train, tearing up the track
Runaway train, burning in my veins
I run away but it always seems the same |
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| New Years Party |
[Dec. 27th, 2004|07:00 pm] |
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I need a head count for the new years party...let me know if you are or are not coming please. There were rumors that there was not going to be a party but the party is still on... |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 21st, 2004|11:38 pm] |
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well, I dont really know what to say, I have a lot on my mind. I am stuck here because someone slashed both of my front tires last weekend. I left my car at jeffs for a couple of days and I guess someone either doesnt like me very much or just some punk kids. I ended up having to stay over at jeffs on sunday because of it. I am not able to work this week because I have no way of getting there. Basically I have no car and no money for christmas. I am completely stressed out and I have no solution. I dont want to go on for another hour bitching so I will leave it at that. |
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[Dec. 9th, 2004|07:09 pm] |
You have the Rossetti girl look. You are the kind
of girl pre-Raphaelite painters admired; tall,
slender, and fair as a lily flower. The
pre-Raphaelite girl had dramatic beauty; long
neck, large soulful eyes, full shapely mouth
and masses of wavy hair. The pre-Raphaelites
painted girls like this, they showed them in
dramatic situations dressed as famous
characters in legends, plays and poetry. The
favourite colours of the artists were russet,
green and gold. The following artists would
have loved to paint you; Holman Hunt, John
Everett Millais, Edward Burne-Jones, William
Morris and Dante Gabriel Rossetti.
'Pretty As A Picture' - Which Artist Would Paint You?
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[Dec. 9th, 2004|06:54 pm] |
| You scored as Lawful Good. A lawful good person acts as a good person is expected or required to act. They are dedicated to upholding both what is right and what is set down in law.
Lawful Good | | 75% | Lawful Neutral | | 55% | Chaotic Good | | 55% | Neutral Good | | 50% | Neutral Evil | | 50% | Chaotic Neutral | | 45% | Lawful Evil | | 45% | True Neutral | | 45% | Chaotic Evil | | 35% | </td>
What is your Alignment?
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| Need SCA name Help! |
[Dec. 9th, 2004|02:33 am] |
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these are my options so far...
NAME.............ORIGIN............MEANING...........
Suravinda........hindu.............beautiful yaksa
Sakari........native american......sweet
Keelin...........Celtic............fair, slender
Simran...........hindu.............gods gift
Fionn............Celtic............white, fair
Suchitra.........Hindu.............none listed
I just liked the way these names sounded...give input please...
which do you like best, if any... |
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